@gcrush fantasy! I want to be dominated!
Over the past almost year, I have really enjoyed the adventures of @mydesire. She is such a lovely goddess, with so much heart and soul. Her blog is delicious, her relationship inspiring! The honesty her and @sylvanus share is a gift that is unlike any other gift!
I read often of her submissions. And the more and more I read about it, the more and more I desire to be dominated. Is it because I have always been so free willed and mostly independent my entire life? Is this what drives the craving?
When I look at the pony play fetish, and watch the handler interact with his “pony” I get all fired up, and am just secretly exploding to jumping in at the bit! 
And yet I have had this feeling inside for so long, yet I constantly feel like I am resisting it! Why is that? Is it that I just want my will to be overpowered so much, that the thought of giving it up takes away the fantasy? (of course spilling the beans here I think indicates that I am really ready to surrender)
So how does one go about this? What are some of your suggestions you sexy and beautiful people out there, who are just as curious, or have the expertise! Share some insight if you do not mind. I have always felt that you don’t have to know everything, you just need to have great resources! Which is why I like to connect with and meet so many diverse people. I love to learn, I love to absorb. I am surrounded by so many delicious earthlings.
Perhaps I would like to meet a girl who is a dom, and have her handle me for shone. hmmmmm, the possibilities are endless. What I do know, is that I am ready for it! I am ready to be tied up, I am ready to be harnessed, I am ready to role play, I am ready to take orders! (even though for the life of me, I will always play hard to get, and never give in easily) I like the struggle.
I found it very interesting when victor of lightworship.com tied me up while we were at lightning in a bottle. It was very interesting. Although we were all just more or less playing around, it did give me lots of ideas. And made me realize, that either shone needs to learn how to tie me up! or I need to figure something out. I can still be quite shye, and I do not necessarily while in the flesh exhibit my continued path of sexual exploration in front of others. I don’t mind it being photographed, or videod, to be viewed later though! he he
Part of my journey with bohocrush is to learn more about my sexuality. To surrender, to know that I do not know everything, and that if I did, wouldn’t not want to be on this earth. I am here, to overcome some of my shyness, but reserve just enough to maintain the intimacy that I feel is really important between a relationship.
When it comes to the physical world, my body, heart, mind, and soul is for shone! I love him more than anything, and I feel the most open, comfortable, and ready for whatever comes our way. I know that we are quite open for many possibilities, but none the less, have to be just right. This makes me really excited to take on each and everyday. To know that the unknown will continue to manifest in my everyday life! To me, that is one hell of an adventure! And I welcome it with open arms.
Want to share some of your fantasys? If you have already blogged about it, feel free to leave a link to your blog post on it! Make it easier for us all to view. And if you are more shye, and wish to only share with me. send me a direct message on twitter!
more thoughts to follow as my mind opens up………
**photo taken by pat herz at our recent burlesque show….
I am working on a fetish routine for one of my acts ;)……..he he he
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Its not uncommon for you to feel that way. Many in the scene (at least that I have found) are usually the kind whose domme or sub role is determined by the opposite. One time, I dated this cop and he was submissive. Sounds corny or funny, but you would want to take yourself into subby headspace after days on end of having to be the authority.
I am usually a domme but I have submitted in rare exceptions. Power exchange is also a good type of therapy. Note that I dont think it should be used 100% for that as it wouldnt be fitting when involved with another play partner or partners. In fact, I will say that in the BDSM world, sometimes you have to watch for that kind of thing…especially if you are submissive rather than dominative.
Ill spare you further babble and leave it at that. Hope that helps.
About half of the population (of both genders) has fantasies about bondage and domination/submission. So you’re certainly not alone in your feelings. Most people though don’t act on their fantansies, either because of personal fear or lack of oppertunity.
I’ve been doing bondage for quite a few years, and I’ve found that there is no single reason why people enjoy it. My first girlfriend liked being tied up because it took away her guilt in enjoying sex - if she was tied up, then she could pretend that she was being forced to enjoy it and it wasn’t fault, hence, no guilt.
So, how should you proceed? “Trust” is the key word. Submission is a gift that should not be givin away lightly. Dont give it to someone if you don’t trust the person or the situation. I usually suggest going with your gut feelings on this - if something feels wrong, then there’s probably something wrong.
On a side note, if you’d like me to teach Shone some basic ropework, let me know.
Arthur
Oops, I thought my first comment didn’t post. Sorry ’bout that.
kat_ always a wealth of knowledge, thank you!
arthur!- hmmmm just might have to take you up on that! I would love for shone to know a few moves!
I am really excited about this journey. Something I really want to share with my baby love! thank you for your love and sharing all of your information.
so excited!
hi, andar here, i just read your post. i like very much. agree to you, sir.